Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts

SilkySiblings

Posted: Sunday, January 12, 2014 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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Hello readers, entry kali ni didedikasikan untuk SilkySiblings. There are six of us and they are like my second family. We do a lot of things together, selalu spend masa sama-sama karaoke, tengok wayang, jalan-jalan, makan-makan, picnic, main games dan sebagainya. I truly heart them so much, so let's get to know them!

SilkyMelly
The first one is SilkyMelly atau nama penuh dia ialah Siti Melody Matjaili. SilkyMelly berasal dari Kuching, Sarawak dan dilahirkan pada 12 Disember 1984. Sekarang SilkyMelly sedang berkhidmat di Jabatan Kastam Diraja Malaysia. She doesn't like cats dan sekarang sedang dalam hubungan intim dengan Encik A bukan nama sebenar.

SilkyNyda
Yang kedua pula ialah SilkyNyda yang diberi nama Noor Zanida Zamani. SilkyNyda ni orang utara yang mana kampung halaman dia terletak di Tasek Gelugor, Pulau Pinang. Was born on 2 April 1985 and now bekerja sebagai tutor/mentor di Cosmotots Damansara Utama/Ampang. Unlike SilkyMelly, she likes cats dan tidak mempunyai hubungan intim dengan Encik A.  
 
SilkyNika
The next one is SilkyNika pemilik nama Yunika Kirana Abdul Khalik yang juga berasal dari Kuching, Sarawak macam SilkyMelly. SilkyNika empunya tarikh lahir adalah pada 27 Jun 1986 dan sedang berkhidmat di Unit Geoteknik Jalan, Jabatan Kerja Raya Malaysia. Also, she is now sedang mengikuti program Sarjana di UiTM Shah Alam dalam semester kedua.
 
SilkyAzim
Berikutnya adalah SilkyAzim yang memiliki nama Mohd Azim Omar. SilkyAzim merupakan anak kelahiran Johor tetapi sekarang menetap di Ayer Keroh, Melaka. Dilahirkan pada 7 November 1988, SilkyAzim is a full-time worker at Petronas ICT Sdn Bhd. SilkyAzim merupakan peminat tegar Dato' Siti Nurhaliza dan gemar menghabiskan masa membina badan di gym.

 SilkyJuma
Yang terakhir sekali adalah SilkyJuma atau nama sebenarnya Mhd Jumain Mapplati. SilkyJuma berasal dari Tawau, Sabah tetapi telah lama menetap di Puchong, Selangor. Lahir pada 1 Julai 1988 dan sekarang sedang bekerja di Stresscon Piling Sdn Bhd as a design engineer sambil menuntut sebagai pelajar Sarjana di UiTM Shah Alam seperti SilkyNika.

2013 Recap

Posted: Saturday, January 11, 2014 by skidsoil in Labels: , , , , , , , , , , ,
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These are some of the highlighted moments in my life from January until December 2013. However they are not in chronological order. I'll spare the explanation, let's just say that I was directly involved in every each of the events.

UiTM 78th Convocation: My Graduation Day

Konsert Permata Seni: Mensyukuri Nikmat Kedamaiann @Istana Budaya

Akademi Tatihseni NIPV Malaysia
Citrawarna: Colors of Malaysia 2013
Short+Sweet Dance Malaysia 2013 @KLPAC
Opening Act for SuperSpontan Akhir 2013
FunDance on RTM2
BBKLCC: World Fiesta 2013
And these are some of the performances I went to watch including theatres, concerts and dance showcases. 

Ramleefestasi @Menara Mara (March)
Parah @DPAC (May)
Projek Disko Baldi: Dreams @PJLA (June)
Siti Nurhaliza in Symphony @DFP (July)
Konsert Lentera Timur @Istana Budaya (September)
Teater Kompilasi Nam Ron @DPAC (November)
Flatland @The Actors Studio (December)

Of New Year, Resolutions and Unclassified Garbage

Posted: Friday, January 10, 2014 by skidsoil in Labels: , , , , ,
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Since it is still January I guess it is not too late for me to wish 'A Very Happy New Year Twenty-Forteen!' and yes this is my second entry for this year. Told ya, I walk the talk though at this very moment I am half asleep and I can't think of what to write. Well speaking of new year, it's mid January now but there are still some of us who are still in the mood for new year, some are getting their new hair cut, some are working on their new image, some are still enjoying their holiday, some are planning to have splendid vacation and the list goes on. I'm just the same old me, new year or not, I am still the same Firdaoz. 

As for the resolutions, I don't really have a list of specific resolutions that I tend to achieve through-out the year but since it has already been more or less eight months since I graduated, so getting a real job is my main agenda for this year. Yes it has been eight freaking months and I'm still unemployed. You might think I am useless for wasting my time being jobless but it's not like I did nothing for the past eight months, I was a freelance-dancer whose schedule was pretty much occupied during that particular time frame. I sound offended didn't I? 

Now I am wide awake, haha. Anyway, since I am back to blogging, I would like to make clear of few things. Firstly, this is totally a personal blog, meaning it's a whole lot of me and myself-related issues inside it. Secondly, this blog was meant to be done in bi-lingual which are English and Malay but I guess it's more Daoz-lingual now so I wrote it in whatever way I like but I try my best to make it understandable to everyone. Last but not least if any of you are wondering why this blog is so called Unclassified Garbage you might want to click here for its explanatory entry.

Aku Tak Hitam Lagi

Posted: Monday, August 22, 2011 by skidsoil in Labels: , , , , ,
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Yezaa, tu dia setelah menggunakan fair and lovely aku kembali putih berseri. Kembali katanya, sejak bila pernah putih itu yang kita tak tau. Yang sebenarnya kehitaman yang diperkatakan sekarang ini tak lain tak bukan merujuk kepada PTPTN sebab aku dah masuk dalam senarai hitam imegresen kerana kegagalan membuat bayaran balik. Waktu belajar kat KUKTEM/UMP dahulu kala PTPTN la sumber utama kewangan aku, seronok dapat duit poket buat belanja tiap-tiap sem tapi nak membayar balik azab. Agak-agak bilalah boleh langsai nak bayar balik RMXX, XXX.XX itu?

Masuk UiTM aku dah buat penangguhan bagai tapi tak berjaya pasal dokumen tak lengkap apa entah, last-last kena senarai hitam. Nak tukar yang ujrah semua tu pulak tak boleh sebab aku dah langgar peraturan, so bebanlah nak bayar hutang bertahun-tahun. Apa-apa pun yang penting sekarang aku dah setelkan setakat yang mampu dan nama aku dah ditarik dari senarai hitam, so dah boleh fly pergi oversea. HAHAHAHAHA. Sangat suka hatinya pun.

Sebelum

Selepas
 
Ok bye aku nak siap-siap packing gerak pergi airport, nak raya kat mana ye tahun ni? LALALALA.. ┐('⌣'┐) (┌'⌣')┌

Learn The Rules

Posted: Saturday, August 6, 2011 by skidsoil in Labels: , ,
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Going Out Of The Comfort Zone

Posted: Wednesday, August 3, 2011 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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This is a reply to PATUNG CENDANA: why did the chicken cross the road.

What PC wrote is indeed true, being out of the comfort zone is not easy. I agreed to what she has written, yet I did go out of my comfort zone. I've been thinking of getting my head bald for quite some time but I don't really have the courage to do it. I fear it will turn out ugly, I always think that my head is somehow not symmetrical and the shape is kind of weird. To do something that can't be undone sure has made me think a lot, with all those uncertainties, what-if-questions and whatnot. Luckily with hair, they grow back. So I made up my mind, sat on the chair ready for my hair to be chopped off or should I say my head to be shaved. After the cutting was done, it was a phew for me, I wasn't horrified with my look plus I got a month to grow them back before class starts. The good thing about being hairless is you need not to worry about your hairdo; no styling wax, no shampoo and no saloon. So if you ever think of going out from your comfort zone, go for it, be crazy for once. Stop wondering and feels the excitement of doing it with no regrets. You'll never know if you never try.

Scofield much am I? Coolness!

WARNING! Do it only if you are extremely ready, be very sure before you step out from your comfort zone.

Life As It Is

Posted: Saturday, March 12, 2011 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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I've been through hell lately, so I've decided to write again. No, actually I don't, I just thought I was but my life is pretty okay, not awesome but still there are lots of reason to be grateful. Okay, this is totally awkward to be writing again, like any other times when I didn't blog for a long time and trying to do it again is somehow feels so weird. Sorry for the abandonment, I just don't really feel like writing. 

So what's up with me? My days are regular, nothing exciting - attending classes, eating, sleeping, more eating and most time I'm just lazying around. I don't put on weight though, I'm not fit either, somewhere in between I guess. Can be considered as physically healthy but emotionally, I would say I'm not being consistent with what I feel. I have this negative atmosphere surrounded around me and it keeps bugging me with negative thoughts. I'm trying to be positive, but it usually lasts only for three hours. Typical me right, always emotional.

Well that's pretty much about me, same old same old. Feel free to motivate me, drop your motivational comments. Don't worry if you sound cliche, it works anyway somehow. At least I feel like there are somebody who care about me. Also, do tell me if you have the recipe to make life exciting. I would have gone bungee jumping and all, but only if I have friends and yes, above all, money. So much things I would do if I have money, backpacking is on top of the list. Some hiking would be good for a start don't you think?

That's all I think for my first post after a long silence, there will be more posts to come or maybe not. I will blog if I blog, I don't know. Not gonna promise anything, afraid that I will go missing again. Before I end this, I'm praying for all my friends who are studying in Japan, hope they are all safe and sound. Take care people!


Undecided

Posted: Thursday, December 9, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: ,
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Saya Suka Mama Lia

Posted: Monday, November 15, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , , , ,
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Sape Mama Lia? Lia pun tak kenal, ape lagi Lia punya Mama kan. Kenapa nak suka dengan dia? Hehe.. Oke-oke, Mama dengan Lia sila duduk rapat-rapat siket. Haa, nampak tak. MamaLia = mamalia. Ye, saya suka amat dengan mamalia, lebih dari kumpulan haiwan yang lain macam reptilia, ikan, atau burung dan paling tak suka dengan amfibia. Tapi dua mamalia yang woof woof dan oink oink (Once again, I'm not teasing you Anis) itu saya tak suka. Baru perasan entri kali ini agak sopan sebab guna kanta ganti diri saya, macam budak baik.

Saya dah pernah bela kucing, arnab dan hamster. Tak banyak, tiga jenis mamalia sahaja tapi ade beberapa ekor kucing, beberapa ekor arnab dan beberapa ekor hamster juga. Semua tu dah lama, zaman sekolah rendah dulu sebab sekolah menengah tinggal di asrama susah nak ada haiwan peliharaan. Yang paling akhir, masa di UMP ada bela seekor kucing betina tapi pembelaan (Sila baca dengan 'e' pepet, kalau 'e' taling jadi hal mahkamah pula) dia terbantut sebab saya tak lagi belajar di sana. Sekarang tak berapa pasti apa dah jadi dengan nasib beliau.

 Meet Combi (Siti Nur Combi Kesumawati Isis Ixora)

Sekarang ada perasaan nak punyai haiwan peliharaan lagi. Fikirkan sugar glider, tapi tak mampu nak beli. Jadi beralih ke tikus belanda atau argus, atau bahasa omputihnya guinea pig. Tapi menatang ni tak ade kena mengena sangkut paut langsung dengan mamalia oink oink, dan tak jugak ade kena mengena dengan Belanda mahupun Pak Cik Agus. Sajalah aku nak bela mamalia yang aku tak pernah ada kan. Lagipun disebabkan aku selalu tengok mamalia kiud ni kat Uptown Shah Alam, keinginan nak bela tu macam menjana dengan cemerlang.


Empty house without a tenant.

Ni gambar sangkar hamster aku dulu, masih dalam kondisi yang baik. Agak-agak oke tak untuk memuatkan seekor guinea pig ke dalam itu? Macam sedikit sempit kan, sebab tu nak cari yang kecil lagi tak nak yang dah besar sangat. Ada terbaca juga yang guinea pig haiwan sosial, kesian kalau bela seekor tapi saya memang niat nak bela seekor pun. Jadi macam mana ye, kalau tak muat kenalah buat home-made punya sangkar. Masih menimbang tara tapi buat masa ni, hati saya kuat nak bela tikus belanda jugak. Sementara itu, biar saya menternak lemak sahaja di rumah. Haha.

Monsoon Season Syndrome

Posted: Saturday, November 13, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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I have couple of entries to be made but I'm way too lazy now, so I just make this quick update instead. There are these things that linger around my thought waiting to be written but I have to hold them first since my eyes won't tolerate with me and my bed is calling me. I know it's 12 pm but I can't help it, I'm so sleepy, I blame the Nasi Lemak I ate for breakfast. Think about it, being at home with not much things to do, no friends due to the fact that you schooled away from home and uninteresting TV programmes, doesn't that BORING you? Plus the monsoon season only makes me feel to hibernate even more. Holidays are supposed to be fun, but mine are mundane. 

ps: I'm turning from Panda to Polar Bear. Wake me up when monsoon ends, I will blog some more then. LOL.

Yu Pi Es Ar

Posted: Thursday, November 11, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , , ,
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Yup, you read that right, UPSR, and it's out today. Hohoho Horlicks, I got 5As myself but that was.. Can you do the math for me? Wait.. Erm.. Aha! That was 11 years ago. So this UPSR thing made me remember my glorious days in primary school. Fine, glorious isn't really a perfect adjective to describe how it was then but I was really a genius boy. No, this is not one of the entry that I will proudly tell about myself being genius, as I said, I WAS a genius, so don't make a big deal out of it. Perhaps smart would be a better word than genius, genius is a bit hyperbole right.

Shamelessly, let me tell you the story of this smart boy. He went to school at Sekolah Kebangsaan Kemasik, and every year from standard 1 to standard 6, he ranked 1st in the school for each examination, except for a couple of time he ranked 2nd where Abu Zarim would had the opportunity to be first. He did passed the PTS examination in standard 3 but since he's the only one who had passed it in that school and it was the first year PTS was introduced, he chose not to skip standard 4. Actually he couldn't remember not choosing the fast track, but considering the fact that it was experimental at that time, he might had made the right decision to go one step at a time.

His brilliante didn't end there, he passed every examination with 5As and unsurprisingly during the trial examination for UPSR, he was the only candidate to score all As. It was most probably due to the lack of competition from other students. When the UPSR result was announced in 1999, he and his three classmates was the only four in his school to get straight As. He was offered to continue his study in Sekolah Menengah Sains Sultan Mahmud or rather known as SESMA. It was nothing big, not because of he wasn't proud of SESMA, it's because his two sisters were already studied there, and also his two cousins. That's the end of the story about a young good-looking boy.

How was it? So not humble kind of entry right, I'm not trying to show off anyway. I believe that it is better to start moderately and going up towards the end, but in my case it is the other way around. I did great in primary school, OK in secondary school, suck in matriculation and totally screwed in university. Luckily I have this chance right now to restart my engine and trying my best to keep it on track. Just last night I came across the Abu Zarim I told in the story, he's jobless now but he had graduated, yet me, I've just finished my first year in UiTM and still have a long way to go. Before I end this entry, let me get one thing straight, I'm not a nerd when I was a kid, I was kinda popular and I always late to school. Thought of scanning my result and paste it here but my certs are all in Shah Alam. ;P

Mother Fish Cracker!

Posted: Saturday, November 6, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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Sebelom aku start marah-marah lagi aku just nak wish thanks to those who actually spent their time reading my previous entry. Your comments are very much appreciated. Personally, I don't like that particular entry. I sounded too sissy, rasa macam gegurl sangat. That's the hardest part of being soft-hearted, should have learned to be mean pulak kan. Macamlah kau mampu Daoz oi. Maka sebab itulah orang selalu take people like me for granted kan.

Ekceli aku sangatlah bukan jenis yang pandai nak marah lama-lama tapi kalau dah takde nak layan aku elok-elok memang sajalah tu nak sakitkan hati aku. Aku punya lah susah nak kontek, dengan hp rosak, guna public pun buzy tak angkat, punyalah cari jalan nak kontek tapi bila dah dapat berhubung sekali layan macam taik pulak. Rasa nak mencarut tu datang balik, perlu lah nak capital reply message aku. Oke, tipu aku tak marah sebab tu pun. It's rooted from other thing which I can't seem to let go of it. BABI! BABI! BABI! BABI! BABI! BABI! BABI! BABI! SEMUA TIANG PATAH SEKOR TUH PUNYA PASAL! BABI LA! (Oh Anis, jangan offended aku tak merujuk pada hang) Aku tak suka kot carut-carut ni, walaupun dalam kepala otak aku ni tak henti-henti lagi menyumpah seranah. At least kat sini aku sebut nama binatang aje kan, belum nama anggota-anggota badan yang tak sepatutnya. Rasa macam terlalu violence untuk aku taip perkataan-perkataan lain yang aku terfikir. Cukuplah sekadar kat kepala aku sendiri aje, better dari aku pergi serang sape-sape dengan hamburan carutan jurus kedua puluh tiga. @*#*^@*$^*(#^#%* Wachaa!

Chill Daoz chill, kau marah sebab mende lain sebenarnya. Aku dah tak ade medium lain nak salurkan kemarahan aku ni, kat blog ni aje aku dapat luahkan sikit. Bahaya aku pendam semua nanti explode lagi susah. So mintak maaf lah dua tiga entri ni berbaur kemarahan dan ketidakpuashatian. Kalau ada yang kena tempias-tempias tu tolonglah faham aku ada hati dan perasaan. Tahulah korang pun ada hati dan perasaan jugak tapi dah kalau asyik duk endahkan aje aku punya, meraung sorang-sorang lah aku jawabnya. Nak marah pun tak guna, nak tendang pun tak kena. Adoi!

Entri Ini Bukan Untuk Dibaca

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Senangnya bila nak suruh orang senaraikan apa yang dia tak suka tentang kita, siap boleh bacakan list tanpa henti sedetail-detailnya. Yes, I have flaws, I'm aware of that. Tapi bila tanya apa yang baik tentang kita, terus terdiam. Nak namakan satu benda pun tak dapat. The only answer that I will get is a long pause, errr.. Seriously am I that bad? Aku memang manusia jahat pun, hati aku mencarut-carut, tak henti-henti, tak putus-putus, tak sudah-sudah.

Dan kenapa orang anggap aku sebagai terlalu bodoh? Sebab senang nak tipu aku? Nak main-mainkan aku? Wujud ke lagi such thing as honesty? We all lie for reasons, tapi kalau dah tahap nak bodoh-bodohkan tu macam dah melampau. People said they are going to change, yet they did it again somehow. I am complaining because there's nothing else I can do, I just have no idea what to do to keep things good. Aku geram dan tak ada ape yang aku boleh buat.

You wanna hear my side of story? Setiap kali orang buat salah, I will try to look beyond their mistakes by remembering all the good things they have done. Still, though I'm giving them chances I can't easily forget what has happened. Orang senang je nak marah-marah dengan tindakan aku, cuba lah letak youself in my shoes then fikir apa agaknya korang rasa. Ha, cakap memang la senang kan, cuba rasa sendiri tengok. Agak-agak boleh tahan tak?

The fact that people only interested in our good side, or should I say they only accept us when we are happy, is killing me. Bila mana kita sedih atau marah, they deny us. Tak sanggup nak hadap muka kita bila kita sedih, tak sudi nak layan bila kita marah-marah. Kalau tak boleh nak terima diri secara total, baik tak payah langsung kan. Aku emosi merapu ni sebab takde sape aku nak luahkan, dengan segala benda aku nak pendam memang lambat la nak ok.

Aku dah tak percaya lagi dah orang kata bila buat baik dibalas baik, bila sayang dibalas sayang, bila setia dibalas setia. Ah, karutlah semua tu. Rasa dah give up, boleh tak nak kata I'm done being good. Maybe it's time for me to be.. uhm.. let me just keep the taught for my own. Kalaulah aku ni pendendam, I would have done awful things, tapi I just don't have the heart to do such things. And for one reason, aku bertahan dan pasrah. Tapi sampai bila?

ps: I'm officially a total loser! Dengan tiang pun aku boleh kalah. FCUK!

Semoga Akan Datang Keajaiban Hingga Akhirnya Kau Pun Mahu

Posted: Wednesday, October 27, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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Cinta sejati tak mengharapkan cinta sebagai balasan. 
Crap! If that's the case, baik bercinta dengan Kristin Kreuk je.

Surviving The Rough Week

Posted: Thursday, October 21, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , , ,
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1.. 2.. 3..Push!! Iyearghhhh!! Tolak para-para emo sekalian jauh-jauh. Hins. Oke, dah letak segala emo-emo kat tepi, jom kita cakap pasal hal-hal yang lebih serius seperti akademik. Eceh. Ketahuan nggak kalian semua yang setibanya aku dari Korea aku disambut meriah dengan test-test, assignment-assignment beserta keluarga? Eh, cakap pasal Korea ada siapa-siapa nak request entri pasal aku di Korea? Kejap, jangan jatuh tangan dulu nak kira. Hmm, kurang sambutan jadi sila abaikan tentang hal itu. Oh, lupa nak maklumkan kepulangan aku disambut dengan satu kecurangan yang dasyat juga, tapi itu kena tanya Encik Hati untuk keterangan yang lebih lanjut. Alamak, terselit jugak sekelumit emo di situ, maaf aku dah cuba nak lupakan tapi itu adalah mustahil! Aku ulang, itu adalah mustahil! Way too impossible dude!

Berbalik pada soal akademik tadi, yakni hal pembelajaran aku di UiTM. Sesampai aku di Shah Alam, aku dimaklumkan terus oleh sahabat handai dengan perihal kerja-kerja individu mahupun berkumpulan yang aku miss sepeniggalan aku selama lebih kurang dua minggu. Makanya terbeliaklah biji mata aku memikirkan bagaimana aku nak setelkan semua tu dalam masa yang tak seberapa memandangkan tinggal seminggu aje lagi sesi perkuliahan. Memang aku agak banyak mengeluh jugak, rasa nak give up pun ade. Tapi nasib baik ada kawan-kawan support, so aku pun dengan macho wat rilek. Muka selamba je padahal memang stress bila pikir kebertimbunan kerja yang perlu disiapkan, tapi semua tu tak guna kalu aku tak start buat. Lagi-lagi dengan mood masih holiday di Seoul, memang mencabar kredibiliti sungguh.

So aku wat la mana-mana patut dulu.  Mula-mula aku amek test-test yang aku tak buat lagi. Dengan tak studi aku masuk kelas amek test, siap wat presentation lagi sebelum amek test. Dah abes serah kat lecturer dengan muka pasrah, tapi rupa-rupanya not bad aku punya markah, nasib baik betul. Second test aku amek plak sempatlah aku baca, konpiden jugak nak amek ni sebab aku prepare nak jawab. Akan tetapi rupa-rupanya, di luar pengetahuan aku test tu cover sampai chapter 4, aku baca sampai chapter 3 sahaja. Chapter 4 tu aku langsung tak tahu apa-apa sebab tu yang dorang belajar time aku takde, nasib baik soklan objektif so aku main taram jawab mana logik. Sekali lagi aku bernasib begitu baik, aku pun tak percaya dengan markah cun melecun yang aku dapat. Hip hip hooray! Alhamdulillah.

Next aku siapkan assignment pulak, tak tidur aku nak wat assignment yang berbundle-bundle. Sukses jugak aku siapkan semua assignment, aku pun agak berpuas hati dengan hasil walaupun buat last minute, kira takdelah aku wat cincai asal nak siap je. Kerja lain macam video untuk subjek bahasa Jepun memang kurang memuaskan hati, tapi dah  sebabkan itu group work, aku pun follow je lah biler yang lain dah kate ok. Test akhir Jepun pun aku tak berapa boleh jawab, dah dua minggu cakap Korea lupa semua pasal Jepun, hahahaha. Apa-apa pun dah lepas satu minggu yang azab tu aku rasa lega sangat, aku berjaya jugak survive ahirnya. Fuh, tak sangka aku berjaya melobosi waktu kritikal itu dengan bergaya. Kuncinya, jangan menggelabah, buat satu persatu, ikut priority dan paling penting bertenang bukan bertendang. Nah, anda pun mampu bergaya seperti seorang hero macam aku. Kudos to me! Clap clap clap!

Lagi Entri Beremosi

Posted: Wednesday, October 20, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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Entri emo datang lagi, hahaha. Emosi negatif ni datang secara berjemaah, so terpaksalah korang hadap dengan entri-entri emo yang aku post secara pukal ni. Kebelakangan ini emosi aku memang langsung tak stabil, sikit pun rasa tak senang hati. Aku try la jugak distract pikiran aku dengan wat perkara-perkara lain, tapi tak berapa nak sukses, kejap aje macam ok selebihnya rasa agak tidak keruan. Adapun perangai aku sepanjang waktu ini menyerupai pesakit mental, tewas dengan emosi yang berjaya menjajah aku secara total dan menyeluruh tanpa belas simpati.

Rasa macam nak lari jauh-jauh pun ada, sebab dah dekat pun bukan boleh jumpa. Hp aku tu macam nak off terus aje sebab jarang-jarang dah bunyi tak macam selalu. Kredit pun tak berapa nak luak sebab dah tak payah wat panggilan hangit pagi-pagi. Makan pun tak lalu, hari-hari pergi McD sebab tak sanggup nak berdepan dengan KFC, ayam-ayam kat situ semua pakat gelakkan aku especially bahagian tight diikuti oleh drumstick dan wing. Kurang ajar bukan mereka, semua nak dengki dengan hidup aku. Hah, ape gelak-gelak? Ko ikan keli goreng pun dua kali lima same aje.

Nak bagi kisah hidup aku lagi sadis, hujung minggu lepas aku lalui dengan penuh pancaroba. Si Paan balik Bentong, si Azmi pulak pergi Serdang rumah mak cik dia, tinggal aku sorang-sorang sebatang kara. Peh, tak macam mencabar pulak aku lalui malam tu dengan jiwa yang hampa kecewa hancur luluh pilu silu. Terasa memang sepi habes dah, nak pasang lagu plak semua macam nak perli aku aje lirik-lirik dia lagi-lagi kalau Dato' Siti dengan Celine punya lagu. Keparahan emosi aku menjadi-jadi bila waktu malam, aku takde Patrick atau Peachy nak temankan. Huh!

Emosi Kurang Nutrisi

Posted: Tuesday, October 19, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , , ,
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Baru perasan yang aku lagi terdorong untuk tulis blog bila jiwa kacau. Waktu emosi macam kurang nutrisi ni lah terasa nak curah-curah perasaan kat blog busuk aku ni. Patut aku lagi nak kongsi benda-benda yang seronok kat blog ni. Balik-balik entri aku nak emo saja, dah tipikal sangat pulak kan. Jadi aku simpan saja segala kusut-masai fikiran aku sekarang. Dua tiga entri lepas konon nak aktif balik tulis blog tapi macam biasalah cakap kosong semata. Haish, dah macam mana nak wat entri-entri ceria bila hati asyik kesepian. Tunggu je lah bila mood dah pulih nanti, takut kena stereotaip sebagai blogger emo. Maka cepat-cepatlah berakhir fasa yang kurang enak ni, jangan makin tenat pula.

ps: Tolonglah kembalikan senyum aku, kamu tahu kamu siapa.

I Need My Sunshine

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It has been DAYS without sunshine.

;(

Posted: Wednesday, October 6, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , ,
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aku ingin di pantai
mencampak jauh semua sengsara

Undecided

Posted: Tuesday, September 7, 2010 by skidsoil in Labels: , , ,
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Actually I'm not really in the mood of updating this blog but just to make sure that I keep my words, so here goes the next entry after the I'm-so-back-to-blogging-again-passionately (as if) entry I posted days ago.

Well to begin with, I'm already at home for Hari Raya. Not that anticipated though to celebrate Raya this year, only got myself a pair of Baju Melayu. This entry will not be on Raya anyway because I'm so not in the mood yet. This is definitely due to the fact that I'm not ready to be home yet but I don't wanna be all alone in Shah Alam either. Please ignore that for I am a very complicated human being.

These few days back, I've been thinking about something and I can't decide what I really want for myself. I keep trying to find an easy answer to escape from this whole thing. Despite that this is an opportunity that I will probably not gonna get it again, I have this very uneasy feeling about it. But a friend told me that I should grab this chance because if something bad were to happen, it will happen somehow.

To be honest, that doesn't really calm me down and help me with my decision but it does matter since it's not just any friend who told me that. If u got what I mean, uh never mind. And to be honest again, I'm totally writing crap right now. Gotta go before it's getting worse, night peeps!

ps: I hope I have decided what's best for me. 

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